"When the song reaches its climax—when the entire spectrum and frequency range is activated, it's reached, it's filled, you experience the sigh, or the crest as I sometimes call it" Hayden described the sigh as a sensation when your body and your soul are sighing (go figure). You've been climbing this great wave, and when the song peaks, you feel this sigh. Then, finally, you've come over the wave into the divine theatre.
God resides in the divine theatre. Hayden describes this as an enlightened state of mind. A euphoria, if you will. The divine theatre is the rare feeling of enlightenment. God itself is behind the veil. Many people have so-called rings in their lives. Some examples listed by Hayden are: drugs, sex, and food. She says it can be experienced through anything. It's anything that makes you feel that rise of your soul.
In music, hayden experiences it as such: "I go through the ring, and I feel the sigh—the crest at the climax of the song, and I enter the divine theatre." When you enter the Divine theatre, you experience what hayden calls God, and the currency of the realm, which is proximity to god. This God isn't the Christian one; it's unique to everyone. God, in this sense, is a higher calling, a connection to something greater than yourself. It's becoming one with that around you that encompasses you and holds you. It's "the euphoria, the ecstasy of feeling spiritually enlightened". She emphasises that everyone experiences it in their own way. She considers the divine theatre's proximity to god. When something overwhelms you, it's that elevated rise that you can't explain, that happens when you've got headphones on, or you're watching a movie that overwhelms you.
The veil is because there needs to be a dividing factor between you and God. Hayden compares this to Eve eating the apple from the tree of the knowledge of good and evil. You never want to be one with God. She emphasises that she wrote it to be that proximity to god is desirable. "The desire is to ultimately touch the veil and be flesh with God. Tearing through the veil and becoming one with God is an unknown and discouraged experience."
"It's ultimately like Cate Blanchett at the end of Kingdom of the Crystal Skull [Indiana Jones], where she gets the skull. She has the knowledge, she understands, and she floats away into bits of light because humans are not meant to be God, we're just meant to be flesh with him."
Hayden's experienced this through music, through drugs like psychedelics, acid, shrooms, and a bit too much ketamine. Sedatives are something she enjoys because slowing her heart rate and relaxing is one way to become one with God. There are different ways to experience the pull. When she takes a downer, it's less of a pull and more of a slide. Her diagram and explanation of the ring are specifically for music for her.
The fear is the barrier between the Divine theatre and the Great dark. There is a fear, for her, of entering. Some people are more ready and willing to be enticed by the Divine theatre to go in. To her, the Divine theatre is an extremely overwhelming experience, and while it feels good, there is an element that makes it feel overwhelming in a not unpleasant way. It's not shame persay, but something to that element. When she's there, she has a mix of emotions and feelings that overwhelming euphoria. That's why she can't take any kind of uppers or Molly/ecstasy because that euphoria is too indulgent, which leads to shame and anxiety that prevents her from having that feeling.
"The Divine theatre is beautiful, but proximity to God is terrifying" It's just like when God says, 'Fear of God is just as important as loving him.' And it's the dichotomy of proximity to God is the fear and love of sometimes things that are overwhelmingly good. The fear is what divides us from being there all the time. "Too much of a good thing is a bad thing, and being here all the time, you would lose touch with reality, and it would be harder to communicate with people who live in the Great Dark [where the majority lives]"
On the flip side, we have the hole. This is being in a place of darkness and despair, wallowing, self-pity, misery, etc... It's alright to go into there from time to time, as long as you're not staying there. "One can venture into the hole, but will enter a perpetual sinking. If one neglects to exit in time, they will enter the Maze and become stuck forever" When you are entering the hole, you are entering a period/point of darkness, which is alright, but when you're in it, you will enter a state of perpetual sinking where you go deeper and deeper. You can never remain where you are; you will go deeper and deeper. There is a lot to be found in the hole. There's maybe inspiration, answers to the dark questions of yourself, what are you afraid of? Why are you afraid of it? It's important to know those things about yourself, and it's an important place to go now and then.
The maze is a place of wandering. It's extreme confusion, it's unreality, it's detachment from reality. Hayden doesn't see people leaving the maze. It's a place of extreme delusion. The maze is not a place that you want to be, or you want to go to. You have to be careful when you're "throwing a pity party and wallowing and depressive and all the negative aspects of the psyche because you don't want to dip into something you can't come back from". To some it's voluntary, to some it's involuntary. Some people have an obsession with the dark that takes them down there; some people, through mental illness beyond their control, sink into that place; people can go there for many, many reasons.
"We all are wanderers in the Great Dark. We all strive to invoke thring, and maybe not all of us, but a good deal of us"
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